主演：奥黛莉·赫本
修 女 传
彼得·芬治 饰演 佛图纳提医师
主演：伊蒂丝·伊文斯 佩姬·艾许克芙特 狄恩·贾格
编剧：罗勃·安德森
制片：亨利·布兰克
导演：佛瑞德·辛尼曼
为我失丧生命的 将要得着生命 "He that shall lose his life for me shall find it.
你若愿意作完全人 可去变卖你所有的 "If thou wilt be perfect...
分给穷人你还要来跟从我 "go sell what thou hast and give to the poor... and come follow me. "
每一名进入修女院的修女 在一进门就该了解 Each sister shall understand that on entering the convent...
她的生命是要为天主牺牲奉献的 she has made the sacrifice of her life to God.
（请交还给金恩）
嗯 我们要走了吗？ Well, are we off?
你准备好就可以了 爸爸 Whenever you're ready, Father.
那就别指望我能准备好 Let's not wait for that.
你的帽子戴歪了 Your hat's on crooked.
我不用镜子戴帽子 好设法适应 I tried to put it on without a mirror to get used to....
好了 There.
玛丽不想道再见 而我宁可不要跟露意丝道别 Marie didn't want to say goodbye. And I'd rather not see Louise.
她会很难过而且 She'll be so upset and....
这是不可能的了 There's no chance.
我在外面等 I'll wait outside.
好了 露意丝 Now, Louise,
我在楼上有留下一点东西 要给你和玛丽 I left some things upstairs for you and Marie.
把衣服分一分 不过蓝色的都给你 Divide the dresses, but you keep the blue ones
因为蓝色适合你 because blue is your color.
好好照顾爸爸 Take good care of Father.
别让他一天动太多手术 And don't let him do too many operations in one day.
-你为什么非走不行呢？ -皮耶 Why do you have to go, anyway?Pierre.
走了 嘉比 我订了一点钟的桌位 Come along, Gaby, I ordered the table for 1 :00.
我希望你们都能跟我一样快乐 I wish you all as happy as I am.
嘉比 我可理解 你能接受神贫或守贞的生活 Gaby, I can see you poor, I can see you chaste.
但我不能理解的是 像你这么有主见的女孩 But I cannot see you, a strong-willed girl,
如何能服从那种钟声过日子 obedient to those bells.
爸爸 她们会召唤我去刚果 从事我所爱的工作 In the Congo, Father, they'll be calling me to work I love.
搞不好你根本到不了刚果 You may never get to the Congo.
你是不能自己要求的 你知道这种规矩吧？ You certainly can never ask for it.You know that, don't you?
只要你走进那扇大门 你个人的意愿就不复存在了 Your personal wishes cease to exist when you enter that door.
也许我自己走进去 会比较容易一点 爸爸 Maybe it would be easier if I went in alone, Father.
你又不是孤儿 You're not an orphan.
也不是没取得你爸爸的同意来的 Or going without your father's consent.
你只要牢记一件事 嘉比 Please remember this, Gaby.
要记得 只要你发现 这种生活不适合你 Remember, if you ever decide this is not right for you...
回家来绝对不丢脸 there is no sense of failure in coming back home.
威廉修女 Sister William.
-范德玛医生？ -是？ -Dr. Van der Mal? -Yes?
我姓帕斯卡 My name's Pascin.
五年前你曾帮我开刀 You operated on me five years ago.
-哦 对了 左肺吧？ -不 是右肺 -Oh, yes. Left lung, wasn't it? -No, the right.
这是小女 西蒙 -May I present my daughter, Simone?
这是小女 嘉比雅 -And my daughter, Gabrielle.
真是大日子 A great day.
-范德玛医师？ -修女 -Dr. Van der Mal? -Sister.
我是玛格丽塔修女 负责保守生的管理工作 I am Sister Margarita, Mistress of Postulants.
欢迎 Welcome.
你一定认识在医院的威廉修女 Of course you know Sister William from the hospital.
威廉修女和我 共同经历过很多困难的时刻 Sister William and I have shared many an anxious hour.
威廉修女说嘉比雅 将可成为一个好护士 Sister William says Gabrielle will be a truly great nurse.
我知道这是因为你成功的教导 I know you are largely responsible for that.
我会怀念她在我实验室的日子 -I'll miss her in my laboratory.
我们也会善用她的专长 -We'll put her to good use in ours.
我想她是很有主见的人 Real spirit, I think.
可以说是固执 过几个星期后 你就知道了 Well, we call it stubbornness. You may, too, after a few weeks.
我们这就要进去了 We'll be going in shortly.
-午安 医师 -午安 修女 -Good afternoon, Doctor. -Good afternoon, Sister.
我猜玛格丽塔修女 就是所谓活生生的纪律型的 I suppose Sister Margarita is what they call a living rule.
是哪型的？ What's that?
有人说如果修女院的会规 不慎被摧毁了 They say if the holy rule of a convent were destroyed...
可以从这类完美的修女身上 重新找回这些纪律 it could be recaptured by studying the behavior of such a perfect nun.
-医师？ -修女 -Doctor. -Sister.
爸爸 我想她是要收取入会金 The dowry, I think, Father.
哦 对 对 当然了 Oh, yes, of course.
谢谢你 医师 Thank you, Doctor.
再见了 爸爸 我会想念你的 Goodbye, Father. I'll miss you.
我会尽力而为 I'll do my best.
我希望你能以我为荣 I want you to be proud of me.
我不希望以你为荣 I don't want to be proud of you.
我希望你能快乐 I want you to be happy.
我很快乐 I am happy.
-嘉比雅 你的号码是1072 -谢谢你 修女 Gabrielle, your number is 1,072.
你很蒙恩 能拥有这个号码 Thank you, Sister. You are blessed to have this number.
这原是玛丽波里卡修女的号码 It belonged to Sister Marie Polycarpe.
她生前是刚果的护士修女 She was a nursing sister in the Congo.
领取你们的物品后 请你们排成两列纵队 When you have your things, you will form two columns
面对着门 and face the door.
从现在开始 你们在队伍中的位置 From now on, your place in line...
是以加入本团体的先后次序决定 is determined by your age in this community.
最早的排最前面 The first admitted is the oldest.
-也就是依梵杜华 -有 That is Yvonne Duval.Here.
依梵杜华 Yvonne Duval.
海伦叶戴拉娃 Henrietta de la Croix.
西蒙帕斯卡 Simone Pascin.
茜茜莉戴潘勒 Cecile de Planer.
嘉比雅范德玛 Gabrielle Van der Mal.
海伦戴洛德 Helen de Rode.
你的手必须习惯不要乱动 Your hands must learn to stay still.
而且要藏起来 And out of sight.
只有在看护病人或祈祷时例外 Except when they're needed for nursing or prayer.
我很高兴你在这里 威廉修女 I'm so glad you're here, Sister William.
等你通过那扇门 我就不在这里了 When you go through that door, I'm not here.
接下来六个月你成为保守生 For the six months that you're a postulant...
还有一年是初学生的身分 我们不可以对话 and the year as a novice...
除非是为了工作上的事情 we may not speak to each other except in matters of work.
我不知道是这样 I didn't know.
别担心你们的头巾了 Do not fret about your veils.
很快的 你们不用镜子 就能穿戴好了 You will soon learn to dress without mirrors.
明天开始了解会规 你们就会知道 As you will learn tomorrow when we start studying the Holy Rule...
会规导引我们在此地的生活 which governs our life here in the community...
其中第一项 就是谨守沉默的纪律 one of the first conditions is the rule of silence.
外在与内心的静默 Exterior and interior silence.
从教堂的晚祷 到第二天的晨祷后之间 We observe the Grand Silence from after chapel at night...
我们必须奉行大静默 until after chapel in the morning.
我们现在就要进入教堂 进行晚祷 We will go now into chapel for evening prayers.
万福玛利亚 你充满圣宠！主与你同在 Hail Mary, you are full of holy favors! The Lord is with you.
你在妇女中受赞颂 你的亲子耶稣同受赞颂 You are blessed among women, and your father and son Jesus is blessed together.
天主圣母玛利亚 求你现在和我们临终时 Virgin Mary of God, please now and when we are dying,
为我们罪人祈求天主 阿们 Pray to God for us sinners. Amen.
（内心的静默） (Inner silence)
亲爱的孩子 你们有五天的时间 接受指导并做好准备 Dear children, you will have five days of instruction and preparation...
然后才正式由总会长接受 成为保守生 before you are formally admitted as postulants by the Superior General.
我们要透过内心的静默 不断努力追寻完美的境界 We constantly strive toward perfection by inner silence.
此一静默的最终目标是 The ultimate goal of this silence...
与天主保持永恒的对话管道 is to make possible constant conversation with God.
因此 我们不可大声交谈 Therefore, we do not talk loudly...
也不可从事无谓的交谈 nor do we engage in useless conversations.
关门要安静无声 We close doors quietly.
并且尽可能的以手势沟通 Whenever possible, we use a kind of sign language.
这手势表示"我可以说话吗？" This means, "May I have permission to speak?"
这表示"对不起" This means, "Excuse me."
我们练练看好吗？ Shall we try it?
为了让某个修女注意 我们会这样做 We do this to attract a sister's attention.
拉拉袖子就可以 Just the sleeve.
当然 我们不可以碰到别的修女 We never touch another sister, of course.
我们在吃饭时更要使用手势 We use signs, particularly during meals.
当然 我们也不为自己的需求 要求任何物品 We, of course, never ask for things for ourselves.
每个修女必须关注修女同胞的需求 Each sister is alert to the needs of her fellow sisters.
亲爱的孩子 走路时我们绝不可 In walking, dear children, we never saunter...
漫无目的似地闲逛 as though we had no place to go.
也不可急促行走 Nor do we hurry.
通过大厅与走道时 When we walk through halls and corridors...
必须实行谦卑 靠着墙行走 we practice humility by walking close to the walls.
现在 Now.
明天 在教堂大厅 Tomorrow, in the chapter hall...
总会长将正式接纳各位入会 the Superior General will admit you formally into the congregation.
你们将开始为期六个月的保守生阶段 And you will begin your six months?terms as postulants.
修女院的艾曼妞院长 将代表我们之中的基督 The Reverend Mother Emmanuel represents Christ among us.
我们都要敬爱与服从她 And as such she is loved and obeyed by us.
你们有何要求 我的孩子？ What do you ask, my children?
愿入会申请得以被接受 To be admitted into this congregation.
以天主之名 请起 Arise in the name of God.
亲爱的孩子 成为修女并不容易 Dear children, it is not easy to be a nun.
修女的生活并非出世隐退 It is not a life of refuge from the world.
修女的人生是自我牺牲 It is a life of sacrifice.
也可说是违反自然的生活 In a way, it is a life against nature.
是对于自我完美恒久的要求 It is a never-ending struggle for self-perfection.
你们当中有些人会有较多的挣扎 Some of you will have more trouble than others.
神贫 守贞与服从 是非常难以遵守的规定 Poverty, chastity, and obedience are extremely difficult.
我们每一个修女都敢这样说 Each of us here can assure you of that.
我们被要求做到的牺牲 The sacrifices that are required of us are bearable...
只有在以爱为出发点时 方可忍受 only if we make them with love.
我们要以挚爱之心 对待这个世界 Just as in the world we can do impossible things...
才能成就不可能的志业 爱与我们同在 with a glad heart for a loved one...so it is with us.
我们可以忍受大牺牲 We can endure greater sacrifice...
因为我们爱的是我们的主 耶稣基督 because the object of our love is our Lord Jesus Christ.
为了与我们的天主结合 In order to come into closer union with our Lord...
各位将接受磨炼与考验 you will be submitted to exercises and tests...
以便找出各位的缺点 which are designed to root out your faults...
约束各位的欲望 使各位能圣洁 得恩宠 curb your passions...and prepare you for acquiring the virtues and grace.
如果有人对于这些谦卑的磨炼 If you question these exercises in humility...
这与十字架上的耶稣结合的过程 有所疑虑 these steps towards a closer union with our crucified Lord...
那么你就不属于我们 you do not belong with us.
与世隔绝的生活 建立于许许多多的小琐事之上 Cloistered life is made up of an infinity of small things.
各位不只必须日日遵守会规 还必须分分秒秒的遵守 You must try to live the Holy Rule not day by day...but minute by minute...
对于有缺失的行为常保持警觉 in a state of constant alertness against imperfections.
那些为了敬爱天主 The perfect nun is one who, for the love of God...
至死谨守所有纪律的修女 才是完美的修女 is obedient in all things unto death.
请牢记 亲爱的孩子 你们可以 欺骗我们 欺骗你们的修女同胞 Remember, dear children, you can very easily cheat us, your sisters.
可是却无法欺骗自己或天主 But you can never cheat yourself. Or God.
保守生将学习严格遵守钟声的召唤 The postulant will learn strict obedience to the bell...
钟声即为天主之声 which is the voice of God.
必须立即停止你们手边的工作 Stopping whatever she is doing instantly...
接受召唤 前去从事别的任务或祈祷 when it calls to other duty or devotions.
你知道午餐吃什么吗？ What is served for lunch, do you know?
也无所谓 他们反正不会让我吃的 It doesn't matter. They won't let me eat it, anyway.
接下来 各位将倾毕生之力 Twice each day for the rest of your lives...
一天两次检视各位的良知 并在这些记事簿中 you will examine your consciences.And enter in these notebooks...
记录下每个有违会规的缺点 each and every imperfection against the Holy Rule.
比如：如果在两餐之间 For example, if you drink a glass of water between meals...
未获允许就喝下一杯水 without asking permission.
并非必要而开了一盏灯 If you leave a light on unnecessarily.
或者工作迟到等等的 If you're late for work, and so on.
我指责自己违反大静默纪律 I accuse myself of breaking the Grand Silence.
我指责自己对身边的修女不够慈善 I accuse myself of uncharitable thoughts about my sisters.
我指责自己未获允许 I accuse myself of having drunk a glass of water
在两餐之间喝水 between meals without permission.
我指责自己 眼神不够端庄 I accuse myself of failing in modesty of the eyes.
我指责自己有世俗的欲求 I accuse myself of worldly desires.
我指责自己无谓的交谈 I accuse myself of having spoken without necessity.
我指责自己在大静默期间大笑 I accuse myself of laughing during the Grand Silence.
我指责自己 I accuse myself....
我指责自己作白日梦 I accuse myself of daydreaming.
-我指责自己 -我指责自己的 -I accuse myself.... -I accuse myself....
请进 Enter.
昨天我去探望 我们一个住院的修女 Yesterday I visited one of our sisters who is ill in hospital.
你父亲是她的主治大夫 And your father was attending her.
他有问起你 以及刚果的事情 He asked about you. And about the Congo.
他认为你想去 那个偏远医疗站当护士 And the bush station where he thinks you would like to do your nursing.
我跟他说想这些还嫌太早 I told him it was much too soon even to think of it.
那是当然的 院长 Of course, Reverend Mother.
-我 -哦 说吧 -I.... -Well, go ahead.
我只想成为一名好护士与好修女 I just want to become a good nurse and a good nun...
-无论被派至何处 都乐于事奉上主 -先成为一名好修女 and to do God's work wherever I'm sent.First become a good nun.
我们只会挑选能力最强的修女 前往传教区去 We select only the very strongest sisters for our missions.
你的医护资历 可让你成为可能的保守生 Your nursing qualifications would seem to make you a likely candidate.
不过你的宗教资历 根本尚未成熟 But you are still very far from being mature in the religious life.
成熟是我们传教人员 最坚强的后盾 Maturity is the armor of our missionaries.
而且不是一蹴可成的 And this is not achieved in a day.
由于明天是授会衣的日子 Since tomorrow is the day of vesture...
是接受初学生圣袍的时候 when you receive the habit of a novice...
所以我们必须在今日谈谈舍弃 we must talk today about detachment.
你们已经割舍家人和好友 You have already detached yourselves from family and friends.
接下来是最困难的 舍弃物质与记忆 Now we have the difficult detachment from things and memories.
今天晚上 各位回房之后 将会发现新的修女袍 Tonight, when you go to your cells...you will find parts of your new habit.
以及放在桌上的物品 也就是从今起 各位仅能拥有的物品 And on your tables, the only possessions allowed you from now on.
有个竹篓子将会传递给各位 A basket will be passed.
你们必须自愿的放进 And you must put in it, of your own free will...
目前还在你们身上 any object you still have...
而且会唤起你们以前的 生活记忆的那些物品 which might call up memories of your former life.
你们有何要求 我的女儿？ What do you ask, my daughters?
我们请求慈悲的天主 We ask for the mercy of God.
接受我们进入这修会 And for the favor to be received...into this congregation.
我们奉献出我们的自由 我们的回忆以及我们的意志 We offer our Lord...our liberty, our memory, and our will.
我们只要求他的爱 以及他神圣的恩典 And we ask only for His love and His holy grace.
你们已决定抛弃名利 财富 Are you firmly resolved...to despise the honors, riches...
以及所有世俗的欢愉 and all the vain pleasures of this world...
以准备与天主更进一步的结合吗？ in order to prepare for a closer union with God?
我们已经决定 蒙席（主教） We are so resolved, Monsignor.
你们这个决定 是出自个人的自由意志吗？ Do you make this request of your own free will?
-是 -是 -Yes. -Yes.
愿引领各位的天主 赐福各位成功迈向完美之途 May the Lord, who has begun this...-bring it to perfection.
阿门 -Amen.
离去吧 我的孩子们 洗脱你们世俗的眷恋 Go, my children...divest yourselves of the vanity of this world.
愿你们的肉身 接受谦卑的袍 And receive for your bodies the habit of humility.
依梵杜华 将以玛丽圣思天修女为名 Yvonne Duval will be known as Sister Marie Sebastian.
海伦叶戴拉娃 将以玛丽伯尔纳德修女为名 Henrietta de la Croix will be known as Sister Marie Bernadette.
西蒙帕斯卡 将以玛丽格黎斯定修女为名 Simone Pascin will be known as Sister Marie Christine.
茜茜莉戴潘勒 将以玛丽若瑟修女为名 Cecile de Planer will be known as Sister Marie Joseph.
嘉比雅范德玛 将以路加修女为名 Gabrielle Van der Mal will be known as Sister Luke.
修女 你真是一个漂亮的修女 Sister, you make a beautiful nun.
修女 Sister.
你脸红了 You're blushing.
我在我的病房也一样 It happened to me, too, in my ward.
我们不应该脸红 我相信我们不应该 We shouldn't blush, I'm sure we shouldn't.
脸红怎么能控制？ How can we help it?
脸红代表某种错误的自觉 It must mean some wrong awareness of self.
我们必须写在记事簿上吗？ Must we write it in our notebooks?
我不知道 I don't know.
我们应该记录我们私下交谈吗？ Should we write that we talked alone?
老是我先开始的 I always start it.
（傲慢 个人意志）
望会保守的训练大都侧重外在 Your training as a postulant has been mostly in externals.
现在 作为初学生 接下来这一年 各位将全力 Now, as novices, you will be devoting the next year...
接受训练 成为真正的修女 to the real formation of a nun.
你们这一整年都不会离开总会院 During that entire year, none of you will leave the Mother House.
我们会特别留意 纠正错误 We will pay particular attention to the removal of faults...
情感的控制 与美德的培养 the control of passions, and the acquiring of virtue...
好让各位在耶稣的恩典中重生 so that you may be born again in Christ.
我们将有发挥慈悲心 We will have exercises to develop charity,
自制力与谦卑的训练 forbearance, and humility...
以及摧毁自利心的各种考验 and tests to destroy love of self.
其中两项就是告罪与补赎 Two of these tests are the culpa and the penance.
从现在开始 除了记事簿之外 各位必须一星期一次 From now on, in addition to writing in your notebooks...you will once a week...
针对违反会规的外在错误 向你们的修女告罪 proclaim before your sisters your external faults against the Rule.
然后在用餐室或小圣堂进行补赎 And you will be given a penance to perform in refectory or in chapel.
补赎的谦卑程度将可反应出 你们内在所存有的骄傲 The degree of humiliation will tell you how much pride is still alive in you.
只有在内心的骄傲逐渐消除之后 Only as your pride slowly crumble...
才能体会真正的谦卑 will you get the first glimpse of true humility.
如果有修女发现 If any sister has observed you in an external fault...
谁的外在错误没告明 她就有责任出自善意的揭发 which you have not proclaimed...it is her duty to proclaim you in charity...
好让各位了解到自身的错误 并加以纠正 so that you may be aware of your errors and correct them.
我的罪过是无谓的交谈 I say my culpa for speaking without necessity
上教堂迟到 重重的关门而没作补赎 , for being late for chapel...for letting a door slam without penance.
谁有什么善意的指正？ What do you have to say in charity?
我要指正我的修女同胞 受到虚荣心的诱惑 I proclaim my sister for giving in to the temptation of vanity...
因为她透过玻璃窗 看自己的模样 by looking at herself in a glass window.
你得在用餐室念三遍圣母经 You will say three Hail Marys in refectory...
特别为替你告罪的善意修女 for the sister who had the charity to proclaim you.
还要为每个过犯 念三遍圣母经 And three Hail Marys for each imperfection.
祈求天主引导你 纠正你所有的错误 And pray God to help you to perfect yourself.
修女 我会借着天主的恩典 努力纠正我的错误 Mother, I will try to correct myself with the grace of God.
我的罪过是违反服从的戒律 I say my culpa for breaking the rule of obedience...
因为我听到钟声时 没有马上放下手边的工作 by not stopping work when I heard the bell.
在用餐室两次打翻牛奶 For having spilled milk twice in the refectory.
在大静默期间无谓的交谈 For having spoken without necessity during Grand Silence.
谁有什么善意的指正？ What have you to say in charity?
我要指正我与路加修女 因为我们私下作伴 I proclaim myself and Sister Luke...for seeking each other's company.
你们要请求天主协助你们 克服这种依附 You will ask God to help you to overcome this attachment...
你们必须亲吻修女的脚 且在用餐室乞讨面包 and you will kiss the feet of the nuns and beg your bread in refectory.
-修女 我将努力纠正自己的过失 -修女 我将努力纠正自己的过失 Mother, I will try to correct myself with the grace of God.
-借着天主的恩典 -借着天主的恩典 -By the grace of God -By the grace of God
（1722年3月7日圣女珍妮维）
天主 我愈是努力 愈是错误连连 Dear Lord...the more I try, the more imperfect I become.
慈爱 谦卑与服从 我似乎都失败了 I seem to fail in charity, humility, and obedience.
我无法完全洗净骄傲之心 Pride has not been burned out of me.
因为当我成功的服从会规之时 When I succeed in obeying the Rule...
却因成功的喜悦与骄傲 而又失败了 I fail at the same time because I have pride in succeeding.
明天你会去避静 然后第一次发愿吧？ Tomorrow you go on retreat before taking the first vows, don't you?
大静默对我已经无所谓了 The Grand Silence doesn't matter for me.
我不去发愿 我要离开了 I'm not taking my vows. I'm leaving.
所以我可以说话 而不用去告罪或作补赎 So I can talk without having to say a culpa or do a penance.
为什么？ Why?
艾曼妞院长说 请牢记 你们可以欺骗我们 Mother Emmanuel said, "Remember, you can cheat us...
可是欺骗不了自己或天主 "but you cannot cheat yourself or God."
要是继续下去 就是欺骗天主了 Well, to go on would be cheating God.
就是伪善了 -To be a hypocrite.
我们都有我们自己的疑虑 -We all have our doubts.
-我的告解师 -当然 -My confessor-- -Of course.
不过我了解自己 But I know myself.
我永远不可能像你一样 I could never be like you.
不可能像你这么坚强 As strong as you.
我是最软弱的一个 I'm the weakest of us all.
如果是这样 你就不会去发愿了 If you were, you would not be taking your vows.
现在我又害你因大静默期间交谈 而得作补赎了 Now I've earned you another penance by talking to you in the Grand Silence.
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
再见 Goodbye.
为我祷告 Pray for me.
我 嘉比雅范德玛 以路加修女为名 "I, Gabrielle Van der Mal, known as Sister Luke...
在天主与院长之前 "promise to God in the presence of
向天主承诺 Your Grace and our Reverend Mother...
将服从本修会之会规 "to obey the Holy Rule of this congregation...
且将奉行服从 守贞与神贫之生活 "and to persevere in the life of obedience, chastity, and poverty...
为期三年奉行不悖 "for the period of three years.
阿门 Amen."
路加修女 这是私下作补赎的方式 Sister Luke, this is the discipline for penance in private.
每周晚上两次 执行时必须念"慈悲经" You will use it twice each week at night while you are saying the Miserere.
记住 这基本上只是一种 象征性的补赎 Remember, it is essentially a symbol of penance.
过与不及 都不好 Too much is as bad as too little.
别忘了 你只是一个工具 Don't forget you are only an instrument.
你自身什么都不是 In yourself you are nothing,
直到你的灵性得提升 until you are lifted up.
明天你将出发前往 Tomorrow you will leave for
安特卫普市的热带医学院 the School of Tropical Medicine in Antwerp.
抱歉 Excuse me.
不亏是你爸爸的女儿 Your father's daughter.
很优秀 Excellent.
对不起 Excuse me.
嗯？ Well.
宝琳修女 你在刚果多少年了？ Sister Pauline, how long were you in the Congo?
-七年 -你常跟麻疯病人在一起 是吗？ Seven years.You worked quite a lot with the lepers, didn't you?
-对 -对！ -Yes. -Yes!
这就是造成麻疯病的杆菌 Well, that is the bacillus which causes leprosy!
谢谢你 医师 Thank you, Doctor.
我也是这样 损失了部分的灵敏度 I, too, have lost some of my quickness,
与记忆 my memory...
都是因为在刚果晒太多太阳 from too much Congo sun.
服太多奎宁造成的 Too much quinine.
如果你们以为你们在现今 这种1930年代所见的刚果 If any of you think that the Congo that you'll find today in 1930...
跟我们在二十年前 所见的刚果一样 is anything like the Congo that we found when we went there 20 years ago...
那你们可就大错特错了 you will be mistaken.
现在那里已辟有脚踏车道 There are now bicycle paths through the brush.
谁去把窗户关上好吗？ Close that window, somebody, will you? There.
我知道你们觉得这里很热 I know you think it's hot.
等你们感染疟疾就知道了 Wait till you've had your share of malaria.
别只顾自己了 路加修女 帮帮你的修女同伴 Don't be selfish, Sister Luke, help your sisters.
她是看显微镜长大的 She was brought up looking through a microscope, you know...
而你们大部分的人 则是玩万花筒长大的 whilst most of you were playing with kaleidoscopes.
路加修女 Sister Luke,
你能帮我吗？ would you help me with this?
那是造成肺结核的柯霍杆菌 That is the bacille de Koch that causes tuberculosis.
我还以为是麻疯杆菌 很像 -I thought it was the leprosy bacillus. -They are very alike.
两种都是杆菌 都有抗酸性 Both rod-shaped, both acid-fast...
都有一点阴影 both with a slight shadow
几乎像个有膜封住的胶囊 almost like an enclosing capsule.
不过 只要仔细观察 But if you look very closely...
就可以看到 you'll see that
麻疯菌比较大 比较长一点 the leprosy bacillus is slightly fatter and longer.
请进 Enter.
我有问题 修女 I'm in trouble, Reverend Mother.
是关于宝琳修女 It's Sister Pauline.
我的良知不安 My conscience is not at peace
因为我对她有不友善的感觉 because of my unfriendly feelings towards her.
总会院教导我们要克服这种感觉 At the Mother House, we were told to overcome feelings like this...
要设法协助别人 by trying to help the person.
五个月来 我设法在课业上协助宝琳修女 For five months I've tried to help Sister Pauline in the courses.
她需要帮忙 She needs help.
不过她不允许友谊以及 But she will not permit friendship...
所以我不知道该如何是好 and so I do not know what to do.
宝琳修女已经来找过我了 Sister Pauline has already come to me.
你们的描述是相同的 The feeling you describe is mutual.
她认为你很骄傲 She thinks you are full of pride.
她不相信 你能培养出谦卑的美德 She does not believe that you can ever achieve humility.
我觉得羞愧 修女 I'm ashamed, My Mother,
为我们彼此感到羞愧 for her and for me.
这种事情说起来 让人感到很幼稚 All this sounds very childish when you tell it.
她不喜欢你 我相信是基于恐惧 Her dislike, I believe, is based on fear.
她担心她无法通过测验 She worries that she will not be able to pass the examination.
即使她通过 她的成绩也差你很多 Or if she does, that she will be far below you in grade.
这可能代表 她无法回到刚果 This could easily mean that she could not return to the Congo.
你有个很好的机会 可为天主做出牺牲 You have been given a truly great opportunity to make a sacrifice for God.
你是否愿意？ You asked what you might do?
路加修女 你是否 Would you, Sister Luke...
愿意让你的测验不过 好展现你谦卑的美德？ be able to fail your examination to show humility?
修女 My Mother...
如果总会院知道且许可的话 我就愿意 I would be willing if the Mother House knows of this and approves.
那就是我们所谓的 有附带条件的谦卑 Then it would be a humility with hooks, as we say.
就是要换取某种代价的牺牲 A humility that takes something back for the sacrifice.
以你这件事来说 就是想得到总会院的谅解 In this case, the satisfaction of knowing that the Mother House knows.
-英勇的行为需要观众 -对 -Courage needs witnesses. -Yes.
但是 真正的谦卑 只有天主知道 自己知道 Real humility, on the other hand...passes unperceived between God and the soul.
你听过我们常说的一句话 "为善不欲人知"吗？ You have heard our phrase, "Do good and disappear."
我们怎么知道何种行为是谦卑？ How do we know when we are humble?
能够接受真正的羞辱就是谦卑 When we can accept a real humiliation.
比如说这种失败 Such as this failure.
我怎么知道 天主会希望我这么做呢？ How can I know God wants this from me?
去问他 Go and ask Him.
别忘了 你的机会 But remember, you are weighing an opportunity
是有可能一去不回的 that may never come again.
他自永恒走来 Out of His eternal time...
会在特定的时刻 给每个人机会 God chooses His moment to offer the most perfect alliance...
与他作最完美的结合 with each individual soul.
早安 路加修女 -Good morning, Sister Luke.
早安 医师 -Good morning, Doctor.
我答应过你父亲 测验结束后就会打电话给他 I promised I would call your father immediately after the examination.
第一个问题 将由我最优秀的同仁发问 I shall defer to my eminent colleagues for the first question.
修女 Sister,
本选拔委员会 请你说明 the board would like to hear from you...
昏睡锥虫可在孑孓蝇的什么部位找到 in what parts of the tsetse fly will the trypanosomes be found.
你可以慢慢想 修女 You may take your time with this question, Sister.
我们从1880年代起 就在研究这种寄生虫了 We have been working on them since the 1880s.
可以在 They will be found in the....
要不要再听一次问题？ Perhaps you'd like the question repeated?
孑孓蝇身上的昏睡锥虫 可以在肠部位 In the tsetse fly, the trypanosomes will be found...
口部和唾腺体找到 in the gut, mouth parts, and salivary glands...
他们会在这些部位繁殖 in all of which sites they multiply.
请你扼要说明恶性疟疾… We would like to hear a résumé of
与潜伏或慢性疟疾… the special clinical types of pernicious...
不同的特殊临床症状 as differentiated from chronic or latent malaria.
病人是清醒的 发寒 反复热 Cerebral, algid, bilious remittent fever,
黑尿热 以及有支气管炎的形式 blackwater fever...and bronchopneumonic form.
我有好消息 I have good news.
我们四位修女都通过测验了 All four of our sisters have passed their examinations.
宝琳修女将可回到刚果 Sister Pauline will return to the Congo.
提摩西与艾伦修女 Sisters Timothy and Ellen...
也将前往刚果 will go to the Congo, too.
路加修女明天上午 将出发前往 Sister Luke will leave tomorrow morning...
布鲁塞尔附近的精神疗养院 加入护理小组 to join the nursing staff of our mental sanatorium near Brussels.
也许院长觉得 你还没做好准备前去刚果 Perhaps Reverend Mother feels you are not yet ready for the Congo.
你必须学习甘心接受 加诸于你的任务 You must learn to accept with love whatever comes to you.
这是我们的信仰生活 很重要的精神 It is essential in religious life.
你在80人当中得第四名 You passed fourth in a class of 80.
他们的所作所为 都要视为常态 Everything they do is to be accepted as normal.
依搦斯修女 这位是路加修女 Sister Agnes, Sister Luke.
早安 基多福修女 Good morning, Mother Christoph.
我们这里的护士 轮值四小时的班 Our practical nurses stand a four-hour shift.
修女必须承担不设限的责任 有的时候要值八到十小时的班 Our sisters take unlimited duty, sometimes from eight to 10 hours.
这里是我们最危险的病人的病房 These are the cells for our most dangerous patients.
即使是对待最危险的病人 We try to approach even our most dangerous cases...
也要以温和的态度 来设法说服他们 with gentle and persuasive reasoning.
巴莎修女 这位是路加修女 她将暂时跟我们在一起 Sister Berthold, this is Sister Luke, who is to be with us for a while.
-巴莎修女 -路加修女 -Sister Berthold. -Sister Luke.
这一个认为她是大天使佳播 This one thinks that she is the Archangel Gabriel.
所以我们就这样称呼她 So we call her that.
午安 大天使 Good afternoon, Archangel.
她是精神分裂病患 相当危险 She's a schizophrenic and very dangerous.
当她神志清楚 She has perfectly sane periods
谈到她的农场时 就是她正常的时候 when she talks intelligently about her farm.
修女不可打开这些病房的门 A sister is forbidden to open the door of any of these cells...
除非有别的修女陪同 unless there is another sister with her.
或是有经验的帮手陪同 Or a practical helper.
应该有人可以应付像她这样的人 One ought to be able to get through to someone like her.
哈啰 -Hello.
哈啰 大天使 -Hello, Archangel.
这里是我们治疗暴力患者的房间 This is the room where we give the treatment for the violent cases.
我们让他们泡澡四到八小时 We keep them four to eight hours in baths...
水都有维持在一定的温度 maintained at a constant temperature.
你听到的声音是他们的脚 The sound that you hear are their heels...
拍打在浴盆上的声音 beating up and down against the tubs.
玛丽修女在值班 Sister Marie is on duty.
她在那里 一次值班大约八到十小时 She generally remains there from eight to 10 hours at a time.
路加修女 Sister Luke.
（你将是玛丽修女在这里的助手）
打开别人的信件检查内容 It isn't one of my pleasantest duties...
不是我感到愉快的工作 opening and reading other people's letters, but...
不过 如此一来 我才能帮助别人 sometimes it does allow me to help them.
你父亲很生气的问了一个问题 As you see, your father asks an angry question.
在你结束繁重的 热带医学课程之后 Why should you waste all these months of your time here...
为何要在这里浪费几个月的时间？ after your strenuous courses in tropical medicine?
我得为我的父亲道歉 I must apologize for my father.
你父亲是很伟大的人 Your father's a very great man.
不过 我不认为他了解 海外殖民地 But I don't think he understands...
只会分派给在信仰生活方面 完美无瑕的修女 that the colonies are only for sisters perfected in the religious life.
他问到你在这里能学到什么 He asks what you could possibly learn in this place.
等我得到许可写信给他时 会告诉他 能在此地学到什么 When I'm permitted to write to him I will tell him what I can learn here:
服从 obedience.
也许艾曼妞院长就是这个意思 Perhaps that's what Mother Emmanuel had in mind.
这里可成为很好的试验基地 That this would make an excellent proving ground.
我会努力的 I shall try.
我会陪你一同努力的 And I shall try with you...
既然你在我这里 你的灵魂就是我该关注的 since your soul is in my care while you are here.
谢谢你 修女 Thank you, Reverend Mother.
嗯？ -Yes?
我很渴 -I am so thirsty.
我可以喝杯水吗？拜托你？ May I have a drink of water, please?
我很渴 A terrible thirst.
因为鱼很咸 The fish was so salty.
（警铃）
哦 天啊 Oh, God.
天啊 God.
天啊 God
哦 天啊 Oh, God.
是大天使 The Archangel.
傲慢！ Pride.
傲慢 不能服从 Pride and disobedience.
-总是不能服从 -不要说话 Always disobedience.
换成是我 搞不好也一样 Don't try to talk. I would probably have done the same thing.
我指控自己傲慢的以为 I accuse myself also of pride in thinking
我能独自应付大天使 I could handle the Archangel myself.
我指责自己自行判断 I accuse myself of using personal judgment in
而不按铃找人来帮忙 not ringing the bell for help.
我指责自己想充英雄 I accuse myself of a sense of heroism.
修女 这三天我躺在医务室 Mother, in the three days I've been lying in the infirmary...
我不断的指责自己 I have accused myself
所有可能违反会规的缺点 of almost every possible imperfection...against the Holy Rule.
总是有那么多明显的错误 They are always such glaring faults.
在热带医学院时 At the School of Tropical Medicine...
玛思乐修女 给我一个表现真正谦卑的机会 Mother Marcella offered me the chance to show true humility...
她教我故意让测验考坏 -by failing an examination.
我知道 -I know.
玛思乐修女是出自善意 Mother Marcella means well...
不过她给你那种建议是错误的 but she was very wrong to make that suggestion to you.
我的孩子 我不会低估 My child, I don't underestimate for a moment
你那些过错的严重性 the seriousness of your faults.
不过 你不可让罪恶感与懊悔 摧毁自己 But you mustn't destroy yourself with guilt and remorse.
你必须学习有点弹性 不然你会崩溃的 You must learn to bend a little or you'll break.
早在我进入这个体系之前 我就有自己的规矩 Long before I entered the order, I had a rule of my own:
宁为玉碎不为瓦全 All or nothing.
我想成为好修女 不然就 I want to be a good nun or....
你会成为好修女的 路加修女 You will be a good nun, Sister Luke.
我想有朝一日 总会到达一种宁静的境界 I thought one would reach some sort of resting place...
服从成为自然 挣扎终将结束 where obedience would be natural and struggle would end.
永远不会有那种宁静的境界 There is no resting place. Ever.
不过你对自己一定要有耐心 But you must have patience with yourself.
不快乐的圣徒 是一开始就输的 Unhappy saints are lost from the beginning.
寻求天主的指引与协助 Ask for God's help and guidance...
我知道你会完成你的终身愿 and I know you will make your final vows.
我 路加修女 "I, Sister Luke...
在此向天主起誓 在主教 "promise to God in the presence of Your Grace
以及我们的院长见证之下 and of our Reverend Mother...
将一生持续不悔的遵守 "to persevere in the life of obedience...
服从 守贞与神贫的美德 "chastity, and poverty...
阿门 "until death. Amen."
本人在此宣布你从今天起 成为我们天主之子 I declare you from today...
耶稣基督的净配 因父 及子 及圣神之名 阿门 the bride of Jesus Christ, Son of Almighty God.
本人在此宣布你从今天起 成为我们天主之子 I declare you from today...
耶稣基督的净配 the bride of Jesus Christ, Son of Almighty God.
修女 为我祈祷 -Mother, pray for me. .
我的女儿 -My daughter,
愿主赐你平安 may God give you peace
不用为我感到骄傲 爸爸 Don't be proud of me, Father.
这是美梦成真 This is really flight.
我在刚果会比较容易牢记 我什么都不是 It will be so much easier in the Congo to remember I'm nothing.
偏远的医疗站 没有完备的工作人员 There will be no worldly associations in a bush station,
而且是在丛林里 in the jungle.
求求您 天主 让我有善行 Please, God, let me do some good.
那是曼婷院长 Where's Mother Mathilde?
我们很幸运 能在曼婷院长底下做事 We are very fortunate in Mother Mathilde.
-奥斯定姆姆 -卡鲁鲁 -Mama Augustine. -Kalulu.
-欢迎回家 奥斯定姆姆 -很高兴能回来 -Welcome home, Mama Augustine. -It's good to be back.
伊伦加 Ilunga.
这位是路加修女 This is Sister Luke.
这位是卡鲁鲁 This is Kalulu.
他才是实际管理修女院的人 He practically runs the convent.
奥斯定修女 欢迎回来 Sister Augustine. Welcome back.
欢迎 Welcome.
-这位是欧瑞莉修女 -修女 -This is Sister Aurelie. -Sister.
-路加修女 -嗯 Sister Luke.
再一个短程的跨刚果河之旅 就到家了 Now, a short boat trip across the Congo and you're home.
那里就是刚果 And there's the Congo.
鼓声道出你抵达了 奥斯定姆姆 Drums tell your arrival, Mama Augustine.
还有你 路加姆姆 Yours, too, Mama Luke.
这鼓声有什么意义 卡鲁鲁？ What are the drums saying, Kalulu?
问奥斯定姆姆 她能判读鼓声 Mama Augustine, she can read drums.
路加修女 如果让你知道 Sister Luke....
昨夜鼓声有关你的描述 应该很有趣 I thought it might amuse you to know what the drums said about you last night.
从卡鲁鲁笑的方式看来 一定是很好玩的意思 The way Kalulu laughed, it must be something very funny.
他们在说 她跟曼婷姆姆握着手 They said:"Held hands with Big Mama Mathilde
回到修女院 受到尊重 on way back to Sister House...
不太说话 眼睛很忙 "therefore esteemed. Talks little, looks much.
年纪轻 还可生儿育女 "Young enough to bear children."
我们称他为"初学生" We call her the Novice.
就像所有的小初学生 他还有很多缺点得纠正 But like all little novices, she's still imperfect in discipline.
跟我一起去到处看看 Come along with me now on my rounds.
我们就从原住民医院开始 We'll start with the native hospital.
我们多么需要 多一双手来帮忙 How we've needed this extra pair of hands.
-扬宝 -扬宝 姆姆 -Yambo -Yambo Mama
扬宝 Yambo
"扬宝"代表"哈啰" 你一定知道 因为你也有研究了 "Yambo"means hello. But of course you know that.
-扬宝 -扬宝 -You've been studying. -Yes.
路加姆姆 -Mama Luke.
"扬宝"路加姆姆 -Yambo, Mama Luke.
他们的上一代 还是森林中的野蛮民族 Only one generation ago, their fathers were savages in the forest.
我们经营这医院 没有他们的帮忙是不行的 We couldn't run the hospital without them.
你会发现到我们还没办法 让他们改信我们的宗教 You'll notice we haven't converted them all yet.
有的人还在脖子上戴着 他们的巫医给的护身符 Some still wear the witch doctor's fetish around their necks.
那是我们的外科医师佛图纳提 That is our surgeon, Dr. Fortunati.
他有一半的时间会在此地 He spends half his time here.
另一半的时间 他都在白人医院里开刀 The rest of the day he operates in the white hospital.
对我来说 她恐怕说太快了 I'm afraid she's too fast for me...
不过每天照顾他们 我的土话就会更厉害 but nursing them every day, I'll learn.
我们教堂的神父 安得烈神父在这里 I see our chaplain, Father Andre, is here.
他很受到大家的敬爱 He is greatly loved.
连非天主教的人也会抱着小孩子 向路过的他要求降福 Even the non-Catholics hold their children up to him...to be blessed when he passes.
安德烈神父... Father Andre...
你有一个新的灵魂要照顾 you have a new soul to look after.
-路加修女 -修女 -Sister Luke. -Sister.
-神父 -我们很高兴你能来这里 -Father. -We're so glad you are here.
我们是很缺帮手的 We do need another pair of hands.
理发师很想把那胡子给剪掉 不过原住民 The barber's been itching to get at that beard for years...
有一种天主是有胡子的印象 所以在刚果的神职人员 but the natives have a picture of God with a beard...
就得留胡子 so priests have to wear beards in the Congo.
没有胡子就没人前来皈依天主 No beard, no converts.
抱歉 失陪了 Excuse me, please.
扬宝 Yambo
我们才刚开始在说服她们 到医院来生小孩 We're only beginning to persuade them to come to hospital to have their babies.
她们还不能完全相信我们 Not all of them trust us, yet.
还是有很多人 宁可在树林里自己把小孩生下来 Many of them still prefer to deliver themselves in the bush.
她们会挖个洞就完事了 They scoop out a hole and that's it.
就是用这鼓声 叫小孩上课的 That's how they call our children to school.
-修女 -修女 -Sister. -Sister.
修女在指导妈妈们 如何为小婴儿洗澡 Sister is teaching the mothers how to wash their children.
知道吗 我原本就希望 能到这偏远的医疗站来 You know, I had hoped to go to the bush station...
如今见识到这一切 我真的很高兴能到这里来 but seeing all of this, I'm very happy to be here.
不过艾曼妞院长 有传一个电报给你 不是吗？ But Mother Emmanuel sent you a cable, didn't she?
对 要我跟你们在这里 Yes, that I was to be here with you.
是跟我们在一起 不过 不是在原住民医院 With us, yes, but not at the native hospital.
是在另一边的白人医院 是欧洲人的医院 Across the way, at the white hospital, with the Europeans.
我们的一个护士得到肺结核 所以我们得让她回家 One of the nurses here got TB and we had to send her home.
感染肺结核后 就无法从事刚果这里的任务 TB makes further service in the Congo impossible...
所以你在那里必须负责两种任务 so you'll have to hold down two jobs over there.
你得监督护理人员 还得从旁协助佛图纳提医师 Supervising the nurses and assisting Dr. Fortunati.
我很抱歉 I'm sorry...
不过 这就是我们得学习的功课 对不对？ but it's a lesson we all have to learn, isn't it?
就是失望 Disappointments.
我们过去那里吧 We'll go there now.
-早安 曼婷姆姆 -伊伦加 这位是路加修女 -Good morning, Mama Mathilde. -Ilunga, this is Sister Luke.
-早安 -Good morning. -Good morning.
--伊伦加将是你在医院这里的副手 Ilunga will be your deputy here at the hospital.
-很好 Good.
你将在这里协助佛图纳提医师 You will be assisting Dr. Fortunati here.
他是个天才也是个恶魔 He is a genius and a devil.
他让自己和他的护士 He works himself to exhaustion...
都忙到不行 and his nurses, too.
我习惯当医师的助手 我父亲 I'm used to doctors. My father....
对不起 我忘了 I'm sorry, I forgot.
你父亲是个伟大的外科医师 Your father is a great surgeon.
我知道 I know.
每次手术一结束 就一定得立即离开 You must always leave surgery the moment operations are over.
不可以留下讨论病情 You must never linger to discuss a case.
你一定会很想讨论 因为他是很棒的 You will be tempted to because he is a marvel.
不过你得牢记 他同时也是个单身汉 But remember, he is also a man...
恐怕还是个无神论者 a bachelor...and I'm afraid an unbeliever.
修女 你千万别以为 Don't ever think for an instant, Sister,
你这身修女服能保护你 that your habit will protect you.
好了 我让你看看你的器材 Now, I leave you to look over your equipment.
是的 院长 Yes, Mother.
你得念六遍圣母经跟一遍天主经 来忏悔你的虚荣心 修女 You will say six A ves and a Pater Noster for that bit of vanity, Sister.
我是佛图纳提医师 你一定是新来的修女 I'm Dr. Fortunati. You must be the new sister.
-是的 我是路加修女 -你好 -Yes, I'm Sister Luke. -How do you do?
-你好 -嗯 看来鼓声没说错 -How do you do? -Well, the drums were right.
看来 有人把鼓声的意思 透露给你知道了 I see somebody told you what they said.
我相信我是在手术室里协助你的 I believe I'm to assist you in the operating room, Doctor.
对 我希望你能比上一个修女 撑得更久 Yes.I hope you bear up longer than the last sister.
我会尽力的 I can only try.
夏天这几个月 这个房间 到上午九点就像个大烤炉一样 These summer months this room gets like a bake-oven by 9:00 in the morning...
所以我都在五点开刀 这代表你得在四点起床 so I operate at 5:00. That means you get up at 4:00.
我可以的 I'll be here.
有的时候 我的手术时间 会跨越你们弥撒的时间 And sometimes I operate right through the time of your mass.
那种时候 你就得习惯 So you'll get used to taking communion...
在那边那个门口去领圣体 at that door there, on those occasions.
我会去要求院长的许可 I'll have to ask permission of Reverend Mother.
修女院院长不负责这里的事情 这里是政府的公家医院 Reverend Mother is not in charge here. This is a government hospital.
-我还是 -你是拿政府的薪水 -Still, I'll-- -You're paid by the government...
你必须向政府负责 and therefore, you're responsible to them.
他们给你薪水不是让你来祈祷 而是来协助我的 They don't pay you to pray, but to assist me.
-我了解 -没关系的 -I understand that. -It's all right.
她早已许可手术室的修女了 The Reverend Mother's given permission to the operating sisters.
我总不能让我的修女 开刀开到一半就跑去望弥撒 I can't have my nurses running off to mass in the middle of an operation.
清晨五点 5:00 in the morning?
你以前有当过手术的助手吗？ Have you ever assisted at an operation before?
有 我父亲是修伯特范德玛医师 Yes. My father's Dr. Hubert Van der Mal.
哦 我了解 你得再念五遍圣母经 而且得乞讨汤喝 I see.You'll say another five A ves and beg your soup...
来忏悔你此刻小小的骄傲感 修女 for that little display of pride, Sister.
最好把他们训练好 不要只会掉东西 These boys had better be trained to do...more than just stand around dropping things.
好的 医师 我会训练他们 Yes, Doctor, I'll work with them.
紧一点 Tighter.
你别在我面前昏倒 Don't you faint on me.
我不会的 I won't.
我要求过院长 请她许可让手术室的修女 I asked Mother Mathilde to let the operating sister...
在上午抵达之前先吃早点 可是她不答应 所以你如果昏倒 have something to eat before she came in the morning, but she won't.
我不会昏倒的 只要你答应我 -So if you faint on me-- -I won't faint, Doctor...
别在手术前一夜吃大蒜就好了 if you promise not to eat garlic again the night before an operation.
好 我答应 All right, I promise.
好 去吧 All right, go on.
如果你能待久一点 我会解释我的作法 When you've been at this longer, I'll explain what I was doing.
身为范德玛医师的女儿 我相信你可以指导我 Your being the daughter of Dr. Van der Mal...I expect you could instruct me.
请不要再提到我父亲了 医师 Please don't mention my father again, Doctor.
-早安 院长 -早安 -Good morning, Reverend Mother. -Good morning.
他们的手是没有路加修女那么柔 I wouldn't say their hands are as gentle as Sister Luke's...
不过 谁比得上她呢？ but then whose are?
这真是前进一大步 This is certainly a great step forward.
我会想借用路加修女 I'd like to borrow Sister Luke
组织我们在纺织厂的工人 to organize our boys in the textile mills.
过来一下 路加修女 Just a moment, Sister Luke.
昨天晚上主教有打电话来 I had a telephone call from the Bishop last night.
他在报纸上有看到你的名字 还从鼓声听到 He had read your name in the paper and heard your name on the drums...
你在这里有一些新发明 about making some innovations here.
他询问我对此事的了解 He asked me what I knew about it.
我没有答案 I had no answer.
我没想到这种事 要询问上面的许可 It didn't occur to me to ask for permission.
他还问我 为什么我有一个修女 He also asked me why one of my nuns
想要突显自己 was trying to singularize herself.
我让你蒙羞了 修女 I've failed you, Reverend Mother.
神长必须了解托付给她的医院 A superior must know what is happening
所有的大小事务 in a hospital entrusted to her care.
你所完成的任务非常重要 You have done something very important.
你唯一的缺点是 没事先告知我 Your only fault is in not telling me in advance...
以免除我不必要的尴尬 and saving me the embarrassment.
-路加姆姆 -什么事 埃米尔？ -Mama Luke. -Yes, Emil?
你的丈夫在哪里？ Where are your husbands?
我不了解你在说什么 埃米尔 I don't understand, Emil.
白人姆姆的丈夫 都在哪里呢？ Where are the husbands of the white mamas at the house?
你问过曼婷院长这个问题吗？ Have you asked Mama Mathilde about this?
-有 -她怎么说的？ -Yes. -What did she say?
说你们都是同一个人的妻子 Something about you all being the wives of one man.
可是我知道 那是不可能的 But I know that can't be right.
安得烈神父说 超过一个妻子就是错误的 Father Andre says it's wrong to have more than one wife.
嗯 这很难解释 Well, it's not easy to explain.
别的姆姆没有丈夫 我是可以理解 I can understand some of the others
可是你不会没有丈夫 not having husbands, but not you.
其实 埃米尔 我是有一个丈夫 The fact is, Emil, I have one.
嗯 我就知道 -Well, I thought you would.
可是他在天堂 -But he's in Heaven.
哦 我很遗憾 路加姆姆 I'm sorry, Mama Luke.
我真的很遗憾 I'm very sorry.
修女 接下来这几天 你可以自己处理吗？ Can you do without me for a few days, Sister?
-这是什么意思 医师？ -我是想我们两个都要休息一下 -What do you mean, Doctor? -Well, I think we both need a rest.
我这个周末要去奇湖钓鱼 I'm going up to Lake Kivu for the weekend to do some fishing.
-我明白了 -给你机会 I see.Give you a chance
好好的补足你的祈祷 to catch up on your prayers.
如果有紧急的病患呢？ If there's an emergency?
就从镇上叫一个医师过来 Well, send for one of the doctors in the town.
癌症末期的病患要继续给吗啡 Keep up the morphine with the terminal cancer.
不过 别碰植皮病患的外用敷料 But don't touch the dressings on the skin graft.
你最好也多多休息 这几个月以来 You'd better get some rest yourself.
-我让你累坏了 -我还可以 I've been working you pretty hard in the last few months.I'm all right.
祝你周末愉快 Have a fine weekend.
你有钓过鱼吗？ Did you ever go fishing?
跟一个不能有回忆的人谈话 简直是天方夜谭 It's impossible to talk to somebody who's not allowed to remember.
星期一见了 See you on Monday.
修女 教会刚刚打电话来 Sister, the mission just called.
安得烈神父发生严重的意外 他们要送他过来 Father Andre has had a bad accident. They're bringing him here.
修女 拜托你 赶快去找佛图纳提医师 See if you can still find Dr. Fortunati, please, Sister.
立刻从镇上叫一个外科医师过来 Call one of the town doctors for surgery immediately.
他的腿伤得很严重吗？ -Is the leg very bad?
粉碎性骨折 -It's shattered.
医师可能得给他截肢 The doctor will have to amputate.
他们找不到医师 They can't reach a doctor.
我让一个男孩子继续去找 I left one of the boys to keep trying.
这么一来 我们只好尽全力抢救他的腿了 In that case, we'll have to do the best we can to save the leg.
我也不想让你背负骄傲的罪 修女 但我恐怕不能不称赞你 I'd like to save you from the sin of pride, Sister, but I'm afraid I can't.
他恐怕得花一年的时间 才能完全康复 This may take nearly a year to mend completely.
不过 你救了神父 But you've saved the Father
还有他的腿 and his leg.
有曼婷院长和欧瑞莉修女 从旁协助我 Mother Mathilde and Sister Aurelie assisted me.
还有其他修女院的修女们在祈祷 Yes, and all the other nuns praying for you back at the Mother House.
这我知道 I know.
不过 你是主其事的人 But you were the one who did it.
这是安得烈神父的腿 最后一张X光照片 It's a photograph of a final x-ray of Father Andre's leg.
可以提醒你 你是多么优秀的一个护士 It's just to remind you what an excellent nurse you are.
院长下个月要溯河 Mother Mathilde's making a trip...
去探访一些偏远的医疗站 我也要派你同行 up the river next month to visit the bush stations.I'm going to send you along, too...
好去帮蒙妙仁神父的麻疯病 做年度检查 to make the annual leprosy check on Father Vermeuhlen.
我看你是没听过这个人 -I see you don't know about him.
没错 -No.
他是在麻疯患者区 被尊称为白圣人 Well, he's known as the White Saint of the Leper Colony.
这趟旅行将对你有帮助 The trip will do you good.
会见蒙妙仁神父对你也有帮助 And meeting Father Vermeuhlen will, too.
宗教并没有让他 成为过度紧张又严谨的人 Religion hasn't made him tense and disciplined.
修女必须谨守纪律 -A nun is a disciplined person.
对 不过不必紧张兮兮的 -Yes, but not necessarily tense.
作为外科医师 我无权剖析别人的思想 As a surgeon, it's not my business to probe into the mind...
可是我得说 神经紧张 反映出内心过度的挣扎 but I'd say that tension is a sign of an exhausting inner struggle.
又搞大静默了 是吧？ The Grand Silence?
你知道吗？ 每次你像这样跟我交谈 Do you realize that every time you talk to me like this...
我就得跪在修女前自己认错？ I should go down on my knees before my sisters and proclaim my fault?
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
那就是蒙妙仁神父 There's Father Vermeuhlen.
蒙妙仁神父 是第一批来刚果的传教士 Father Vermeuhlen was one of the first missionaries in the Congo.
以前他独自一人居住在丛林里 He lived all alone in the bush.
有一天他就失踪了 大家都以为他死了 One day he disappeared, they thought he was dead.
过了几年 大家又找到他了 跟原住民住在一起 But years later they found him. Living with a native.
为了弥补他的罪 As penance for his sins...
他向上级请求 让他为所有麻疯病患奉献余生 he asked to be allowed to devote the rest of his life to the lepers.
来 我带你参观这个医疗站 Well, I'll show you the rest of the station.
这是临时替代用的 It's a makeshift, .
不过 还是可以照顾病患 but at least they're being cared for
如果把他们留在他们的部落里 他们就会被遗弃而亡 If left in the forest with their tribes, they'd be abandoned to die.
他们了解他们的病很严重吗？ Do they realize how ill they are?
可以说 我们大家 都因为不够了解而得保安全 Somehow we're all of us protected from full realization.
那个无赖佛图纳提还好吗？ How's that rascal Fortunati?
他给我一份关于你的 详细指导手则 He gave me complete instructions about you.
和我必须做的所有测试 All the tests I must make.
嗯 我们可以不用管那些测试 Well, we can forget about the tests.
我知道这些测试很讨厌 不过这正是我们此行的目的 I know they're a nuisance, but that is the real reason for our trip.
他总是说那是早晚的问题 He always said it was just a matter of time.
院长 很抱歉 得再次提出不情之请 Reverend Mother, I'm sorry to ask again...
晚祷时 我还能缺席吗？ but may I have permission to be absent from vespers?
我还有一些化验得.. There are some slides I must--
谢谢你 院长 Thank you, Reverend Mother.
我们该拿你怎么办呢？ What are we going to do about you?
我们在清晨五点就开刀 现在都半夜了 We operated at 5:00 in the morning.
明天一早五点还要开刀 It's now after midnight and we operate again at 5:00.
我会在场的 I'll be there.
可是你这样能撑几天？ But how many more days will you be there?
万一你倒了 我该怎么办？ What'll I do if you're not?
你倾听病患的话 借以抒解他们的不适 You comfort your patients by listening to their troubles.
可是谁来倾听你的不适？ Who listens to yours?
我有责任关注这医院里 所有病患的健康 I'm responsible for the health of the patients in this hospital.
还有你的健康 And for your health, too.
你去睡觉吧 You go to bed.
我不知道该如何是好 医师 我得到肺结核了 I don't know what to do, Doctor. I have TB.
谁说的？ Who says so?
是谁告诉你的？ Who told you that?
我刚刚做了检查 I just made a test.
这代表我得回到欧洲 It will mean my going back to Europe.
可是你是唯一 能跟我在刚果共事的人 But you're the only one in the whole Congo I can work with.
我不能失去你 I can't lose you.
我们先来检查看看 Let's have a look.
我不可以的 我必须叫另一个修女来 I'm not allowed. I should call another sister.
我们先检查一下 Let's have a look.
我准备好了 I'm ready.
你从没出错过 不过这一次 希望你是错的 You're never wrong, but let's hope this time you are.
深呼吸 Take a deep breath.
再一次 And again.
咳一下 Now cough.
呼吸 Breathe.
咳一下 Cough.
呼吸 Breathe.
我们很幸运 修女 We're lucky, Sister.
感染部位还很小 我想可以及时治疗 It's a small summit lesion, and I think we've got it in time.
你可以接受黄金治疗法 You can stand the gold treatment.
这种方法对肾脏有点负担 不过你身体很好 It's a bit rough on the kidneys, but you're strong.
我会负全责的 I'll take the responsibility.
-我得向曼婷院长报告 -为什么？ -I'll have to tell Mother Mathilde. -Why?
服从会规 我得报告 Obedience. I must.
你报告了 他们就会送你回家 They'll send you home if you do.
我知道 I know.
你担心如果他们把你送回去 你会受不了修女院 You're afraid you won't be able to stand the convent if they send you back.
我要跟你谈谈你自己 I'm going to tell you something about yourself, Sister.
我打从一开始 就是只跟修女护士合作 I've never worked with any other kind of nurse except nuns since I began.
你并不适合这种生涯 修女 And you're not in the mold, Sister.
你永远无法适应 You never will be.
你是所谓的入世的修女 You're what's called a worldly nun.
最适合服务大众 病患 ldeal for the public, ideal for the patients.
但是你有自己的看法 你坚持自己的理念 But you see things your own way. You stick to your own ideas.
你永远不可能成为 修女院期望的那种修女 You'll never be the kind of nun that your convent expects you to be.
那就是你的病 That's your illness.
肺结核只是副作用 The TB is a byproduct.
我可以治疗这种副作用 只要你想让我治疗 I can cure the byproduct, if you want me to.
我想留下 I want to stay.
好 那就交给我 All right, leave it to me.
我会用无法送你回去的方式 对你的院长说 I'll tell the Mother Superior in such a way that she can't send you home.
我们让你住在别馆 你可以睡在 We'll put you up in the little pavilion...
-可说是位于树上的房间 -多久？ where you'll be sleeping practically in the treetops.
也许五 六个月 -How long? -Five, six months, perhaps.
不过 别忘了 我只是在治疗副作用 But remember, I'm only working on the byproduct.
主要的病要靠你自己治疗 The main illness is for you to cure.
我会尽力的 I'll try.
你知道什么我不晓得的 Anything you knew before I did,
都尽量别说 keep under your bonnet if you can.
除非你作为显微镜高手的傲气 That is, unless your pride...
无法克制地想说出去 as a genius of the microscope doesn't get the better of you.
我早上会去拿X光片 I'll take an x-ray in the morning.
请进 Come in.
这是菲力斯 曼婷院长说他可以陪你 His name is Felix and Mother Mathilde said you might have him.
哦 真的吗？ Really?
伊伦加把他给我的 Ilunga gave him to me.
我宁可他把脖子上的符交给我 I'd rather he'd given me that fetish from around his neck.
这里让我想起我的一个树屋 就是当我 This reminds me of a tree house that I had when I....
你需要什么请尽管说 佛图纳提医师说 Anything you want, you ask for it.
你是被宠爱 Because Dr. Fortunati says you're to be pampered.
这不是很美妙吗？ Isn't it wonderful?
谢谢你们的菲力斯 Thanks for Felix.
什么都别拒绝 什么都别问 Refuse nothing. Ask for nothing.
这是醒酒专用的辣蛋酱 快快喝下 It's a prairie oyster. Swallow it quickly.
每天晚上你都要起来 Each night at 10:00 you'll be awakened
-吃三明治 喝两杯小酒 -我明白了 with sandwiches and two glasses of wine.I see.
鼓声已经在传话了 所以明天之前 The drums have already started passing the word...
就会涌入为路加修女所准备的 食物与酒 so by tomorrow we'll be swamped with food and drink for Sister Luke.
别哭 Don't cry.
别想太多 放轻松 Don't think too much. Relax.
轻松面对人生的变化 Live life as it comes.
每一天都是 From day to day.
我要你尽可能 多喝这种比利时啤酒 I want you to drink as much of this Belgian beer as you can.
除非你想让黄金疗法 把肾脏给毁了 Unless you want to come out of this gold dust cure with ruined kidneys.
-我怎么能喝那么多 -没关系的 这里又没有别人 How can I drink so much--
只有他会看到 It's all right, there's nobody to see you here except him.
你也了解这些猴子的习性 And you know about monkeys.
这就对了 能看到你笑真好 That's right. It's good to see you laugh.
你继续笑下去 修女 You keep laughing, Sister.
我会的 I will.
我交待过要休息 I said rest.
绝对的休息 Absolute rest.
谢谢你 院长 Thank you, Mother.
我不知道我痊愈了没有 不过我感觉很好 I don't know if I'm well yet, but I feel so well.
感觉好极了 So completely well.
奇怪的是 得生病了 才学会要将每一天 It's strange that I had to fall ill to learn to take each day and each night...
与每一夜视为天主的恩典 as a gift from God.
而且毫不挣扎 Without struggle.
想起来很不可思议 不过 我下回要告罪时 It seems impossible, but when I say my culpa to you next...
应该不会有任何的违规行为了 I don't think I'll have any imperfections against the Rule to proclaim.
只不过今天晚上 Except that tonight
你在大静默期间说话了 you talked during the Grand Silence.
整个星期都是正常的 That's a whole week of normal.
你可以感到骄傲的 医师 You're allowed to have pride, Doctor.
为你治愈病人感到自豪吧 Take pride in your cure.
你已经好了吗？ Are you cured?
我的化验跟体温似乎都正常了 The slides and the temperature seem to....
你能回到手术室的话 那就太好了 -It'll be good to have you back in surgery.
能回去帮忙 感觉才好 -It'll be good to be useful again.
不用急 修女 再回到你的团体并非易事 Don't rush it, Sister.It's not going to be easy to return to the community.
即使是你们在刚果 这个小小的团体也一样 Even to this select little gathering here in the Congo.
我会想念这里的 I'm going to miss this.
哦 Well.
至少他很好奇 At least he's curious.
如果我能让他在圣诞夜走进教堂就好了 If I could only get him into the chapel Christmas Eve.
嗯 你看怎样 伊伦加？ Well, what do you think of it, Ilunga?
是为教堂做的 It's for the chapel.
圣诞夜要用的 Christmas Eve.
进来 进来看看 Come in. Come in and have a look at it.
今年恐怕还不行 I'm afraid not this year.
我愿不计一切代价 让他改信天主 I would give anything if I could convert him.
姆姆 Mama
你把他们宠坏了 修女 You spoil them, Sister.
是我们的一个建筑工人 来急救的 It's one of our building boys who's come for first aid.
你以为帮他们的手指头上绷带 就可以拯救他们的灵魂 You think if you bandage their fingers, you'll get their souls.
哦 也许你说对了 Well, maybe you're right.
不 在里面 在诊疗所里 No, inside. Dispensary.
不 在里面 No, inside.
伊伦加 帮我抬她起来 Ilunga, help me lift her.
伊伦加 Ilunga.
她死了 院长 She is dead, Reverend Mother.
伊伦加 Ilunga.
如果你要到感染区 请把这个交给拉斐尔修女 If you're on your way to contagion, please take these to Sister Raphael.
-我不明白 -什么？ -I don't understand. -What?
你没有生我们的气？ You're not angry with us?
-我们的心里没有生气的空间 -不过 这是杀人事件 -There's no place in our hearts for anger. -But this killing, Mama Luke.
在事发当时也没生气 Not even then.
他为什么要杀人 伊伦加？ Why did he do it, Ilunga?
一个巫医说 如果他能杀死一个白人女性 A witch doctor told him that if he killed a white woman...
就可以甩脱亡妻的鬼魂 he'd be rid of the ghost of his dead wife.
我为他感到遗憾 I feel sorry for him.
如果这种死亡事件发生在我们身上 我们会把他绑在木桩上 If such a death happened with us...
-再把他剁碎喂鱼 -可是我们不会 we'd tie the murderer to a stake and cut his body for fish bait.
我们被教导要宽恕别人 But we would not. We've been taught to forgive.
这就是你必须尽力 让你其他的伙伴了解的 That's what you must try and make the other boys understand.
跟他们说 希望他们圣诞夜都能到教堂来 Tell the boys we hope they'll all come to chapel Christmas Eve.
也许你也能来 伊伦加 Maybe even you, Ilunga.
今天下午我们找个时间 讨论安格贝的案子 Sometime this afternoon we'll discus the Englebert case.
-这趟旅程我想给你一些指示 -旅程？ I want to give you instructions for the trip.
-对 曼婷院长没告诉你吗？ -什么？ -The trip? -Yes. Hasn't Mother Mathilde told you?
我得把你跟安格贝这个病患 一起送回比利时去 What?I have to send you back to Belgium. With the Englebert case.
你是唯一有资格 是我们唯一能派出的人选 You are the only one qualified. The only one we can possibly send.
他是殖民地重要的人 He is important to the colony.
唯有送他回比利时 住进设备完善的疗养院 And we can only avoid a complete mental breakdown...
才能避免他的精神完全崩溃 if we get him to a sanitarium with proper facilities.
那当然 院长 Of course, Mother.
我希望总会院 能尽快让你回到我们这里 I hope the Mother House will return you to us as soon as possible.
同时 他们最终 In the meantime, at long last...
还是派出一个 跟你的资历相似的修女给我 they are sending me another sister with qualifications similar to yours.
佛图纳提医师会针对这个病患 给你进一步的指示 Dr. Fortunati will give you instructions about the case.
我们大家都会想念你的 We shall all miss you.
海岸线这趟火车的旅途 你将有原住民守卫协助你 You'll have native guards to help you on the train as far as the coast.
之后 会有船医分担你的责任 After that, the ship's doctor will share the responsibility.
我会给你镇定剂补给品 以防他有需要 I'll give you a supply of sedatives in case he needs them.
-你觉得他们会派你回来吗？ -我不知道 Do you think they'll send you back here?I don't know.
-欧洲就要发生战争 -我知道 -There's going to be a war in Europe. -I know.
听说 会有人来补你的缺 或来代替你 They tell me somebody else is coming out to fill in for you or take your place.
对 -Yes.
那别人就需要训练这个新人 -Somebody else will have to train her.
你一走我也要去休长假了 I'm taking a long vacation when you leave here.
我也是不得已的 I couldn't help it.
安格贝是重要的人 我没别的人可派 只好派你去 Englebert's an important man. There was nobody else, I had to send you.
-我了解 -真希望我能把你留在这里 I understand.I wish I could keep you here.
不只是为了你好 也是为了我自己 As much for your sake as for mine.
万一他们无限期的 把你留在比利时 Supposing they keep you indefinitely in Belgium?
你对你的宗教力量 似乎很有信心 可是我没有 You seem so sure of your religious strength, but I'm not.
只要你踏上的总会院 高墙 会规 静默等等的 Once you set foot in the Mother House, the walls, the discipline, the silence--
你能指示镇定剂的剂量吗？ Will you indicate the dosage for the sedatives?
万一他们无限期的留住你 你的力量足够吗？ But if they keep you indefinitely, will the strength be enough?
够 Yes.
你确定那不是你惊人的意志力吗？ You're sure it's not that ferocious will of yours?
我确信 I'm sure.
不过等你到了那里 你就会希望 But when you get there, you're going to wish that you--
医师 修女不是一个 能有希望或心愿的人 Doctor, a nun is not a person who wishes or desires.
可是你会感受到 你无法 But you're going to feel that you can't....
等你决定要讨论个案了 请再打电话叫我来 When you're ready to discuss the case, please ring for me.
我要回去了 你这漂亮的小东西 I'm coming back, you beautiful thing.
你听到没 我要回去了 Do you hear me? I'm coming back.
请进 路加姆姆 Come in, Mama Luke.
这是大家要送给你的 This is for you.
跟他们说谢谢 Tell them thank you.
你的身体还好吗 我的孩子？ -How is your health, my child?
很好 谢谢你 院长 -Very good, thank you, Reverend Mother.
很多来自殖民家庭 还有神父们的信函 So many fine letters from colonial families...
都在称赞你的工作 and missionary fathers about your good work.
那里的人都喜爱你也敬重你 You were liked and respected by everyone out there...
我看 也包含你的原住民手下 including your native boys, I see.
你希望我把这个转交给你父亲吗？ Do you wish me to give it to your father?
我宁愿放在修会 最适合它的地方 I would rather it be kept in the congregation to which it belongs.
等我回到 When I return to....
等我离开这里的时候 会很欣慰这东西就放在总会院 When I leave here, it will be good to know it is in the Mother House.
你真是太慷慨了 That is very generous of you.
你将成为我们的 保守生与初学生的好榜样 You will be a splendid example for our postulants and novices here.
我想 新来的人对你也很好 And I think they will be good for you, too.
我们愈是被当成好榜样 就愈能成为好榜样 The more we are looked to for example, the better examples we become.
你不觉得是这样吗？ -Don't you find that true?
-是的 院长 -这么说 你会留在我们这里了 -Yes, Reverend Mother.So, you will stay here with us then.
好了 你好好的休息 什么都别担心 Now, you must have a good rest.You must not worry about anything.
只要享受又回到家的感觉 Simply enjoy being home again.
我不能在医院帮忙吗？院长？ Couldn't I help at the hospital, Reverend Mother?
不 我的孩子 现在不行 No, my child, not now.
你必须安静几个月 好恢复你的精神生活 You must have a few quiet months to renew your spiritual life.
这个放在我们的博物馆里 一定很好看 This will look very nice in our museum.
嘉比 嘉比 Gaby.
你瘦了 嘉比 You look thin, Gaby.
你总是这样说 爸爸 -You always say that, Father.
总是真的 -It's always true.
不 不是 No, it isn't.
当然 Of course...
我才不相信 你在刚果感染肺结核的鬼扯淡 I don't believe that rubbish about your having had TB in the Congo.
那就别信 Don't believe it then.
一个人在热带地区感染肺结核 别想活下来 One just doesn't survive and have TB in the tropics.
我活下来了 Here I am.
你一定是遇到好医生了 You must've had a good doctor.
最杰出的 Exceptional.
我想你休息一阵之后 他们就会送你回去了？ I suppose they'll be sending you back after a little rest?
-我不知道 -如果没有战争的话 I don't know.If there's not a war.
在船上大家都在谈这件事 They talked about nothing else on the boat.
你弟弟去从军了 Your brother's in the army.
-小皮耶？ -哦 是大皮耶了 -Little Pierre? -Oh, it's big Pierre.
你姐夫也从军了 Your sister's husbands are in the army, too.
玛丽和露意丝 很快就会来见你的 Marie and Louise will come to see you soon.
不可能会有战争的 There can't be a war.
你真的还好吗？嘉比？ How are you, really, Gaby?
我很好 爸爸 你要看我的X光片吗？ I'm very well, Father. Would you like to see the x-rays?
我是说这里面好吗？ I mean in here.
你那里面好吗？ How are you in there?
为了你 还感到很寂寞 Still very lonely for you.
你知道 You know,
金恩一直没有结婚 Jean never married.
爸爸 你真是无可救药的浪漫 Father, you're an incurable romantic.
金恩不再是我的心上人了 Jean isn't in my thoughts anymore.
我终于抽出时间 训练来接替你的助手 I finally had to take a hand in training your successor...
不过 她无法取代你 but she'll never replace you.
她没有叛逆的精神 She has no rebellion in her.
那女孩才是天生该当修女的人选 That girl was born to be a nun...
那种特质是你花一千年 也培养不来的 修女小姐 something you could never be in a thousand years, Reverend Sister.
你没有爱上他吧 我的孩子？ You're not in love with him, are you, my child?
没有 修女 我当然没有爱上他 No, Mother, of course I've not fallen in love with him.
我深深的仰慕 I admire him deeply for his skill and selflessness...
他专业与无私的救人精神 when there is a life to be saved.
我总是在想 他在开刀时那不凡的一刻 I think always he's very close to God...
与天主十分接近 in those unearthly hours when he operates.
亲爱的天主 Dear Lord,
帮助我割舍这些回忆 help me to detach from these memories.
如果我无法忘怀刚果 我如何能成为好修女？ How can I be a good nun if I cannot get the Congo out of my blood?
万一他们无限期的 把你留在总会院呢？ Suppose you're detained in the Mother House indefinitely?
到时候你的力量足够吗？ Will your strength be enough then?
我通常会劝你去避静 Ordinarily, I would advise you to go on a retreat...
设法回复你内心的平静 to try to regain your inner silence.
我也是一直在祈祷与默想 I have done nothing but pray and meditate.
许多年前 Many years ago,
我也是从传教区 回到这寂静的修女院 I came back from the missions to the quiet of this house.
我了解你的感受 I know what you are feeling.
这是无法比较的 院长 There can be no comparison, Reverend Mother.
我一直念着你 尤其是记得为你祷告 I've been remembering you especially in my prayers...
我知道你经历许多痛苦 knowing the agony you've been going through.
几个星期以来 只要有人敲我的门 我就以为是你 For weeks, each tap on my door, I thought it would be you.
我如果能安静地留下来 I know it would have been the greater perfection to have
- 一定更完美 - 对你而言却更危险 stayed here quietly.And the greater danger in your case.
因为有战争的危险 我不能派你回刚果 I can't send you back to the Congo with the talk of war.
不过 在我们医院的手术房 有个很重要的助手空缺 But there is an important post as Assistant in Surgery...
是在荷兰边境的医院 at our hospital on the Holland border.
谢谢你 院长 Thank you, Reverend Mother.
我刚接到艾曼妞院长的电话 I have just received a telephone call from our Reverend Mother Emmanuel.
在三点左右 阿姆斯特丹被轰炸 "At 3:00 a.m. Rotterdam was bombarded...
死亡数千人 "many thousands killed.
比利时在五点被轰炸 "Belgium was bombarded at 5:00.
国内的水闸系统已经开始运作 "The country's system of sluices had been put into operation...
很多主要道路已经被炸毁 "and certain main roads are already blown up
以预防德军入侵 to prevent the German advances."
我跟你们说这件事 是希望你们有心理准备 I tell you this only that you will be prepared.
我们的医疗工作必须如常的进行 Our work must go on as if nothing has happened.
做个有勇气而沉着的榜样 是你们的责任 It will be your responsibility to set the example of courage and calm.
还必须怀有博爱的心 And to retain in your hearts the spirit of charity for all.
即使对我国的敌人也一样 Even the enemies of our country.
布鲁塞尔已于今日落入敌军手中 "Brussels fell to the enemy today.
荷兰全国都在德军手中 "All of Holland is in German hands.
法 德边界的马其诺防线已失陷 "The Maginot Line has fallen...
法北也被占领 "and Northern France has been occupied."
比利时军队 英国特遣部队 "The Belgian Army, the British Expeditionary Forces...
以及法国第九军队 "and the Ninth French Army...
都被逼至沿海的敦刻尔克城 "are fighting with their backs to the sea at Dunkirk."
里奥波德国王已签署降书 King Leopold has signed a surrender.
他请求全民 表现出尊严与纪律 He asks the population to behave with dignity and discipline.
请修女们不要偏袒任何一方 The sisters are urged not to take sides...
也不要介入任何反抗军的地下行动 and not to participate in any activity against the forces of occupation...
以维持我们教区的平静生活 不被打扰 so that the orderly life of the community is not disturbed...
让我们的救人工作 得以不受阻扰的持续下去 and so that our hospital work may go on without confusion.
我只能再说一次 先生 I can only say again, monsieur, that Mademoiselle Lisa...
丽莎小姐在值班时不能接电话 cannot accept telephone calls while on duty.
好吧 神父 All right, Father,
请等一下 just a moment.
有个人说他是约翰神父 Someone who says he's Father John.
路加修女 我能到镇上去一个小时吗？ Sister Luke, may I have permission to go into town for an hour?
我叔叔生病了 My uncle is sick.
丽莎 你上星期 就两次使用生病的叔叔当借口了 Now, Lisa, you've used that "sick uncle" excuse twice in the last week.
-有吗？ -有 -Have I? -Yes.
-我必须去 修女 -那就把原因告诉我 -I have to go, Sister. -Then tell me why.
你说你想成为一名修女 You say you want to become a nun.
那 当修女的首要之务 就是要服从 Well, one of the first things to learn is obedience to....
我们在帮忙藏匿 我方逃出来的军人 We are hiding our soldiers who escaped.
我们希望能送他们到英格兰去 We're hoping to get them to England.
-地下的 -够了 -The underground-- -That's enough.
-你弟弟很可能也是其中一个 -求求你 -Your brother may be one of the boys-- -Please.
我必须去 I have to go.
求求你 我可以吗？ Please, may I?
如果有需要我帮忙的地方 请告诉我 If ever I can be of help, tell me.
快 快去 Hurry.
你说要帮忙是真心的吗？ Did you mean that, about help?
主啊 原谅我 我再也无法服从 Dear Lord, forgive me, I cannot obey anymore.
从现在开始 我的所作所为 都是你 我之间的秘密 What I do from now on is between You and me alone.
我有信要交给你 路加修女 I have a letter for you, Sister Luke.
那我就得拿给院长看 Then I'll have to show it to Mother Superior.
不要 Don't.
（在吉维特外会合）
希望这封信能送到你手中 Hope this letter can be delivered to you
你的弟弟皮耶 Your brother Pierre
父亲于一星期前在吉维特 与弗美之间的路上被杀 Father was killed on the road between Givet and Former a week ago
德军的机关枪扫射他们时 他正在医治难民 He was treating refugees when the German machine gun shot them.
如果这种死亡事件发生在我们身上 路加姆姆 If such a death happened with us, Mama Luke...
我们会把他绑在木桩上 再把他剁碎喂鱼 we'd tie the murderer to a stake and cut his body for fish bait.
可是我们不会 But we would not.
我们被教导要宽恕别人 We have been taught to forgive.
哦 我的父亲！ Oh, Father!
我的父亲！ my Father!
神父 我不再属于修女院 Father, I no longer belong in a convent.
你为何这么说 我的孩子？ Why do you say that, my child?
我在信仰生活中是个虚伪的人 I am a hypocrite in the religious life.
我穿着代表服从的圣袍 可是我有违会规 I wear the habit of obedience, but I flout the Rule.
我戴着十字架 却有一颗充满恨意的心 I wear the cross of Christ above a heart filled with hate.
你得再努力 我的孩子 这种时刻是来考验我们的 You must try, my child. These times are sent to test us.
我甚至怀疑自己是否是个好教友 I wonder if I'm even a good Christian.
只要一想到我父亲 When I think of my father,
我就不能原谅敌人 I can't forgive the enemy.
而且这只是众多缺点中的一个 And this is only one of my faults.
你必须向天主祈祷 请他驱逐你心中的仇恨 You must pray to God to deliver you from revenge in the heart.
今天一个德国的战地护士 在这里死去 Today, a German war nurse died here...
即使我很努力 也无法为她感到难过 and try as I would, I couldn't regret it.
我整个人生的志向 在于为救人而奉献 My whole lifework has been dedicated to saving lives...
但当时我却几乎感到狂喜 and I almost rejoiced.
也许那样的要求太多了 Perhaps it is too much to ask.
神父 我不认为如此 Father, I don't believe that.
不是要求太多 It is not too much to ask.
是我无法遵守会规 I simply cannot obey...
- 如果我无法遵守 那么 - 你对自己要求太苛了 我的孩子 -and if I cannot obey, then-- -You're so hard on yourself, my child.
神父 请把我的个案 呈到枢机主教那里去 Father, please lay my case before the Cardinal.
我不再是修女了 I am no longer a nun.
你已承诺要至死服从 You solemnly promised to obey unto death.
要终身信守你的誓愿 以求悦乐天主 You should seek God's pleasure and your own joy...
并让自己喜悦 in keeping faith with your vows.
牺牲是对天主的爱 唯一的考验 Sacrifice is the only test to thy love of God.
你去向万福圣母作九日敬礼 You will make a novena to our Blessed Virgin.
她总是能赐予奇迹 She always works miracles.
难道你没注意到吗？ Haven't you noticed?
好吧 神父 因为是你要求的 All right, Father, because you ask me.
艾曼妞院长出访一周 Reverend Mother Emmanuel is paying a visit in a week's time.
请你等她回来再跟她谈 Please wait and speak to her.
我不想见到艾曼妞院长 I do not want to see Mother Emmanuel.
你害怕她会说服你留下？ Are you afraid she'll dissuade you from leaving?
不是那样的 It isn't that.
请将我的个案交到主教那里 Please lay my case before the Cardinal.
你不要等一阵子再决定吗？ Won't you wait a little longer?
神父 请你原谅我 Father, you must forgive me...
如果你不把我的个案送上去 but if you do not put my case before the Cardinal...
我就会做出让自己痛不欲生的事 I should do something that would kill me.
我会自行离开 I shall leave without permission.
为什么要让我求你 孩子？ Why did you make me ask for you, my child?
你不认为 我很了解你的挣扎吗？ Didn't you know that I'd been aware of your struggle?
现在讨论已经太迟了 院长 It is too late for discussions, Reverend Mother.
我已经不再挣扎 I'm at the end of my struggles.
你的修女同胞爱你 医生们信任你 Your sisters love you...
你的学生十分尊敬你 the doctors trust you...and your students respect you enormously.
你们可以欺骗你们的修女同胞 You can cheat your sisters...
可是欺骗不了自己或天主 but you cannot cheat yourself or God.
你已经挣扎够久 确定你要结束修道了吗？ Have you struggled long enough to say surely that you've come to the end?
我想我已经 I think I've been
挣扎多年了 院长 struggling all these years, Reverend Mother.
一开始 每一次的挣扎 似乎都是不一样的 In the beginning, each struggle seemed different from the one before it.
可是后来就一再重复 But then they began to repeat...
后来我发现 一切的挣扎来自相同的核心 and I saw they all had the same core: obedience...
毫无疑问的服从 without question...
毫无内在挣扎的服从 without inner murmuring.
如耶稣般完美的服从 Perfect obedience as Christ practiced it...
我再也办不到 as I no longer can.
是吗？ Yes?
有很多时候 我的良知 会质疑事情的优先顺序 There are times when my conscience asks which has priority.
是别的事情或会规比较重要 It or the Holy Rule?
每当钟声召唤我前往教堂 When the bell calls me to chapel...
我就得牺牲 可能是与病患之间 I often have to sacrifice what might be the decisive moment...
非常重要的精神谈话 in a spiritual talk with a patient.
每天我上教堂或去用餐室 都会迟到 I'm late every day for chapel or refectory or both.
我值夜班时 都会打破大静默 When I have night duty, I break the Grand Silence...
我再也不愿打断 与需要我的病患之间的对话 because I can no longer cut short a talk with a patient who seems to need me.
修女 天主的使者 为何得被五声钟响所限制 Mother, why must God's helpers be struck dumb by five bells...
而不能好好聆听那些有困扰的人 说出他们心中的话？ in the very hours when men in trouble want to talk about their souls?
你进入修女院是要成为修女 而非护士 You entered the convent to be a nun, not to be a nurse.
信仰生活的重要性必须排在 The religious life must be more important to you than your love of medicine.
你所爱的医护生活之前
你不再为天主继续努力吗？ Won't you make one more effort for God?
不再为我这个天主的仆人努力？ And for me as His instrument?
我已尽力了 院长 I have tried, Reverend Mother.
当我离开这里之时 你将永远在我心中 When I go from here, I shall take you with me in my heart...
我将每日为你祈祷 and keep you each day in my prayers.
-丽莎 -修女 -Lisa. -Sister.
丽莎 你常提到要进入修女院 Lisa, you often talked about entering the convent.
是的 修女 我要 Yes, Sister. I'm going to.
你进来 该不是为了 You're not entering because of
某种私人的仰慕之情 any personal feeling of admiration...
为了爱戴某位修女才来的吧？ you might have...for any of the sisters?
不 不是 No, not really.
我不是 I don't think so.
我只是想知道 丽莎 因为我要离开了 I just wanted to know, Lisa, because I'm going out.
我可以感觉到你想离开 I felt you were going to.
我很高兴你进来了 I'm glad you're coming in.
你真的要离开吗？ Is it certain that you're leaving?
我已经请求了 I have asked.
接下来会怎样呢？ What happens now?
我也不知道 I have no idea.
这是一个地址 Here's an address.
地下反抗军需要护士 The underground needs nurses.
我们会想念你的 -We shall miss you.
我也会想念 -And I shall miss....
你会成为好修女 丽莎 You'll be a fine nun, Lisa.
而非失败的修女 Not a failure.
可是 But
作为枢机主教的代表人 我必须问你 路加修女 As a representative of the Archbishop, I must ask you, Sister Luke...
你这个决定 出自你个人的自由意志吗？ if you are doing this of your own free will?
是的 Yes.
修女 你真的有考虑到 这个决定的严重性吗？ Sister, have you really considered the seriousness of what you're doing?
有的 Yes.
这里有三张文件要签署 修女 There are these three papers to sign, Sister.
一张副本给你 一张留给我们 One copy is for you, one is for us...
另一张是给教宗存档 and one is for the papal archives.
你有地方可去吗？ Have you somewhere to go?
有 Yes.
修女 我们无法再改变你了吗？ Sister, is there nothing we can do?
是的 Nothing.
请你从这里进入守门人的房间 From here you will go to the portress?room.
她会给你进一步的指示 She will give you further instructions.
请把你的钥匙放在我的桌上 You may leave your keys on my desk.
最后 这是你父亲在你入会时 给予的入会金 And in conclusion, the dowry your father gave when you entered.
你必须取回 You must take it.
请从这里到12房去 一切都准备好了 Go through here to Room 12. Everything is ready.
你准备完毕后 请按下按钮 我会开门 Press the button when you are finished and I will open.
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